My Love Life

I am just a black eyed tragedy,
surrounded by luck in everything
except love, in this I crash and burn.

I never seem to be able to love
someone enough, or is it -
that I love too much, either way...

I lose and lose and when I think
I can't lose anymore I lose again,
my heart is never free.. always it dictates.

Orders passed down through lifetimes,
cosmic imperatives, mystic objectives
that must come to be in this universe,

These things lead me back to you,
and I can't give you up even though
I've tried, but in reality - its simple --

I just can't bare to part with you,
I don't want to be without you -
Its like a sunflower trying to live without the sun.

I need you to make sense of my day,
to understand how I remember things
I couldn't possibly know, and yet I do.

Save me from myself, pick me up
once again like I am the only thing
that matters, wipe away the soot.